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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      F/M, M/M
  Fandom:
      Teenage_Mutant_Ninja_Turtles_(TV_2012)
  Relationship:
      Leonardo/Raphael_(TMNT), Casey_Jones/Michelangelo_(TMNT), Karai/
      Donatello, Donatello/April_O'Neil
  Character:
      Leonardo_(TMNT), Raphael_(TMNT), April_O'Neil_(TMNT), Michelangelo_
      (TMNT), Casey_Jones, Splinter_(TMNT), Donatello_(TMNT), Karai_(TMNT)
  Additional Tags:
      Christmas, Kisses, Fluff, Love, Romance, First_Kiss, First_Time,
      happiness, Presents, Turtlecest, Angst_with_a_Happy_Ending, Heartache,
      Eggs, Intersex, Mpreg, Miscarriage, Grief
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      Published: 2017-12-25 Updated: 2018-03-18 Chapters: 8/? Words: 16064
****** Christmas in the sewers ******
by KerryAnne
Summary
     Raphael's madly in love with Donnie and seeks Leo's advice on how to
     court him. Leo gives it and says he's happy for Raph, but is he or
     does he harbor a secret love for him? And will Donnie return Raph's
     love or does he want someone else? Love and complications arise.
Notes
See the end of the work for notes
***** December 21 *****
Leo's 16
Donnie's 16
Mikey's 16
Raphael's 15
Raphael lay back in his hammock, on December 21, hands clasped behind his head,
a dreamy expression on his face, as he thought about his crush. He loved
everything about Don: his slim olive figure, his hazel eyes, his gap tooth, his
adorable little tail that dropped down when Don was totally relaxed, his firm
ass and his toned legs and his gentle, easy nature that was the opposite of
his. Don could soothe him, like nobody else, with just one word, unlike Leo,
who drove Raphael insane with his pomposity. Don never made him feel like he
was stupid or a brute or that he and his opinions were worthless. Don always
knew what to say when Raphael had had a bad day. He knew when to leave Raphael
alone, unlike Leo, who was always up his shell about something. Donnie was
goodness personified and never raised his voice. He made Raphael want to be a
better turtle and he made him feel things he'd never thought he'd feel: love
and happiness, as well as warmth pooling in his groin whenever Don was around.
But his hormones aside, Raphael mostly wanted to take Don in his arms, hug and
kiss him and tell him what he meant to him. He'd been tempted many times when
they'd worked together on mechanics, a mutual interest, but every time he'd
tried to confess his feelings, he'd frozen.
He'd had the same feelings for Leo a few years prior, but of course, he'd been
unable to tell him too, thinking Leo would never return the same feelings. Leo
was the perfect son, unlike him, and while Donnie was also perfection, he
seemed to enjoy Raphael's company, which Leo didn't. Leo seemed to find
Raphael's presence an annoyance, so the temperamental turtle no longer spent
time with him and rather spent it with Donnie. Leo was gorgeous with his
mesmerizing sapphire eyes, slender frame, cute butt and incredible legs, but
Leo was out of reach and too self-righteous. Donnie was down to earth and
attainable.
He'd been in love with Donnie for about six months now and he knew he had to
confess his feelings, but how? He wasn't good with words. Actions were more his
thing. He had to do something, but what? He couldn't ask Mikey for advice,
because he'd scoff at him, the macho turtle, for falling in love and would
endlessly mock him. He couldn't ask his dad. It would lead to another
uncomfortable talk about sex, so his only options were either April or Casey.
No. Scratch Casey. He was a Neanderthal about emotions and love too. The poor
guy had tried to hit on April and woo her by asking her to a wrestling match,
so no, he wasn't the best person to ask.
Raphael wanted to tell Donnie the next day and if everything went well, who
knows, maybe he'd have some fun in the bedroom with his new mate at Christmas.
That would be the best Christmas present. He smiled at the idea.
Then he remembered that April was away and would only be back on Christmas Eve.
Which meant Leo was the only one he could ask.
It was ten p.m., but he knew Leo would be awake. He rarely went to bed before
midnight, usually waiting up for Raphael and meditating.
The emerald skinned turtle scowled. It would be humiliating asking Leo,
especially if he laughed at him, but there was no one else he could ask, so he
had to ignore his ego and suck it up.
Raphael got up and tapped on Leo's door. "Fearless, it's me. Can we talk?"
"I'm kind of busy, Raph."
"Too busy for yer favorite little brother? Open the damn door or I'm gonna kick
it down!"
"Since you ask so nicely," Leo said dryly. "I'll open it." He did and added, as
Raphael entered, "You're not my favorite little brother. I don't have
favorites."
"Whatever. I need some advice."
"What kind of advice?"
"Uh, love," Raphael said, his cheeks reddened.
"My hotheaded brother's in love. Wow," Leo teased. "Who's the lucky girl?
"I need yer help and stop pokin' fun at me. It's hard enough askin' ya without
bein' mocked," Raphael snapped, his green eyes blazing.
"All right. What do you want?"
"How do ya woo someone?"
"You take them on dates and buy them gifts and stuff. Compliment them. Do
things for them. Flowers and gifts are always winners. Make them meals. Do
things from the heart. Tell them how much they mean to you and when you have
their heart, never treat them badly. Respect them, cherish them and love them.
I think it's great you're in love, Raph, and I hope you meet someone, who fills
you with joy and gives you the love you deserve. You think you're not worthy of
affection, but you are. So very deserving and anyone who has your heart is
extremely blessed. I think you're incredible. I'm so happy for you and hope it
works out," Leo said in a voice that was a strange mixture of elation and
sadness.
Raphael's plastron swelled in pride. Leo had said he was incredible. Was Leo
flirting? And Leo's tone. He sounded disappointed. Why? It wasn't like Leo
liked him more than a brother, so Raphael shoved the flirting idea to the back
of his mind and said, "Thanks. Ya've helped me think of ideas now. I know
exactly how ta woo Donnie now."
"Yeah? Donnie, huh?" Leo said, trying to hide the pain in his voice.
"Yeah," Raphael said, his green eyes shining in happiness, as an idea hit him.
"Thanks, Leo. And I hope ya meet someone too. Ya can be a big pain in the
shell, but yer also pretty cool sometimes and deserve love. I'm gonna knock
Donnie's shell off. Make him a romantic meal and compliment him and tell him
how I feel. Hey, if I need more help, can I ask ya?"
"Sure, Raph," Leo said, trying not to cry.
Raphael didn't see the gloomy expression on Leo's face when he turned around
and left and he didn't see Leo collapse onto the ground in a flood of tears.
XXX
Raphael woke up early the next morning and went into the kitchen. Leo was
drinking his tea and Raphael began to prepare Donnie's coffee. "Mornin', Leo,"
Raphael said breezily. "Ya look buggered. Didn't sleep?"
"I'm fine," Leo lied. "You seem chipper."
"Yeah. I have a feelin' Christmas is gonna be extra special this year," Raphael
said and winked.
"I'm happy for you, Raph," Leo lied.
Donnie entered the room and said, "Hi, guys."
"Hey, Donnie," Raphael said, pouring Donnie's brewed coffee into a cup and
staring at Donnie adoringly. "I made yer coffee."
"Thanks, Raph. You're a lifesaver," Donnie said, accepting the coffee. What
would I do without you? You're the best. Hey, Leo. You don't look so hot. Bad
night?"
"I'm fine!" Leo hissed, rising to his feet. "I'm going to meditate. I'll see
you later."
"What's his problem?" Donnie said. "Not like Leo to be crabby, even if he had a
bad night."
"Leo's probably pissed he lost one of his borin' books or somethin'," Raphael
said. "He'll get over it. I wanna ask ya somethin'."
"What, Raph? I need to go to the lab in a minute. I'm way behind with my work!"
"Ya wanna spend time with me later?"
"I'm not sure I can. I'm so behind, Raph. I'm sorry and April's coming over to
watch movies."
"I thought she was only comin' here on Christmas Eve."
"Plans change. I'll see what I can do, okay? I want to make sure the thing I'm
working on is finished by Christmas. It's a secret, so I can't tell you what it
is."
"Yer workin' on somethin'? Yer in love, huh?"
Donnie smiled and said, "I am."
"Do I know the person?"
"Yes," Donnie said and smiled mysteriously. He placed a hand on Raphael's
shoulder, sending tingles down Raphael's spine, and said, "I have to go,
Raphie. Thanks for the coffee. You know, you're really sweet when you want to
be. I like that."
Raphael's plastron swelled and he blushed and said, "It's nothin'." He called
me Raphie, Raphael thought and sweet. He likes me as more a brother. It's
obvious. I'm gonna tell him how I feel and then I'll cook for him.
"Hey, Raph, I appreciate what you do. Thank you."
"Only a pleasure, Donnie." I think he's makin' me somethin' for Christmas,
Raphael thought excitedly. Wow. Donnie likes me too. But why was Leo actin' so
weird? Stupid Fearless is probably just jealous. Yeah. That's it. Typical Leo.
Never happy for anyone else!
XXX
Leo's heart had broken when he'd seen the loving looks Raphael had cast at
Donnie and he'd made a decision. He couldn't stay in the lair and see his crush
hook up with someone else. It would be too painful.
Leo knocked on Splinter's door and said, "Sensei, can we talk, please?"
"Come in, Leonardo."
Leo entered and said, "I need to talk to you please."
"What's the matter, Leonardo?" the aged rat said. "You look distressed."
"I am. It's about Raphael."
"What about him? Is he sick?"
"He's love-sick, Sensei."
"Isn't that good, my son? I don't understand."
"It is and it isn't. Raphael's in love with Donnie and while I'm happy for
Raph, I'm heartbroken. I've always liked Raph and now I can never tell him."
"Does Donatello feel the same way about Raphael?"
"I'm convinced he does. They spend so much time together and Donnie often tells
me how wonderful Raphael is."
"Perhaps there's another reason why Donatello mentions Raphael's attributes.
Not because he's interested in Raphael himself, but so that you'll consider
Raphael as a mate."
"I sincerely doubt that, Sensei. I believe Donnie feels the same way about
Raphael and is madly in love with him. I can't be here if they're a couple,
Sensei. It would be too painful. I'm asking permission to go away for an
extended period of time. I'm hoping my love for Raphael will diminish to that
of fraternal affection only and I'll be able to be happy for them. I also feel
I haven't been as good a leader as I can be. Send me to the Ancient One and I
can hone my skills. Maybe two years away. That'll be sufficient."
"And who'll lead the team?"
"Raphael can lead in my absence. It's not forever, Sensei. Please. I need to
get away," Leo beseeched.
"Very well, Leonardo. I'll make preparations with the Ancient One and you'll
leave shortly after Christmas."
"Thank you, Sensei," Leo said and bowed.
He left Splinter's room, his head lowered, and collided with Raphael, who was
on his way to Donnie's lab.
"Whoa, Fearless. Watch where yer goin'!" the red clad turtle said irritably.
Leo said nothing and strode to his bedroom, banging the door so hard behind
him; it nearly fell off of its hinges.
Raphael blinked in surprise. Leo was pissy, but not this pissy that he'd slam
his door. Leo was the master of self-control and never did that. What the
hell's upset Fearless so much, Raphael thought? He decided to give Leo space
and talk to him later that day after he'd spoken to Donnie.
***** Karai's plans *****
Chapter Summary
     Karai has special plans for Raphael.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
The past few days had been exceptionally busy for Karai. She’d been baking up a
storm, setting up her Christmas tree and decorations in her new apartment,
finished all of her Christmas shopping, and transformed her apartment into a
cozy love nest, which also included a love seat. She’d also gone to town buying
gifts for her secret crush. She knew he’d love the fancy new gym equipment, the
red leather jacket and matching gloves, red helmet and the cute his and hers
matching red silk robes she’d found in Japan when she’d visited there two weeks
prior. He’d also love her lingerie collection, which included everything from
bustiers to teddies to thongs and she had a wonderful toy box containing a
variety of sex toys that included dildos, whips and chains and her personal
favorite the cock destroyer, a rather lethal cock ring with spikes. She had a
feeling Raphael was into BDSM and that he was kinky. She couldn’t wait to show
him everything. He’d be one happy, satisfied boy.
She imagined Raphael’s thick, huge purple rod plowing into her and she felt
herself grow wet. He was probably a virgin and would be a bit nervous, but
she’d coax him and praise him and he’d calm down and do what she’d been craving
for months ever since she’d accidentally walked in on him when he’d been in the
toilet.
The moron had left the door open and needing a pee, she’d walked in and seen
him naked and frantically masturbating, his eyes closed, his hands pumping his
gigantic, engorged cock and moaning something she couldn’t make out. She’d
quietly left without him realizing her presence, but but the image had been
imprinted on her psyche. Raphael was a gorgeous specimen with his mesmerizing
green eyes, his ripped body, his firm ass and stunning legs. She’d also seen
his tail once when he’d casually dropped it when they’d been watching movies.
He’d been sitting next to Leo and she’d been on the opposite sofa, but had seen
it. It was short and very cute and it had wagged a little before Raphael had
curled it back up. Karai couldn’t wait to touch it and to play with it, knowing
it was one of the erogenous zones a turtle has. The others being their dicks,
slits and plastrons.
Karai had no doubt he’d be an incredible lover once he gained more experience.
Long term plans? Karai wasn’t sure if they’d work out, but she damn well wanted
to try. They had similar personalities, but if they communicated and there was
love, they could make it work, right?
Raphael wasn’t the brightest spark, she thought, but she didn’t exactly want
him for his intelligence. No. She wanted to see how the sex went and then the
other pieces would fall into place. Wasn’t that how it always went?
Raphael would live with her. Screw what his pesky brothers thought. They’d be
together 24/7 and she’d be his universe, like he’d hers and they’d play, date
and have fun without his brothers’ interference. Or maybe she and Raphael would
move to Japan. Maybe have kids. She adored kids and she knew she’d be a great
mom. Raphael would be a wonderful daddy. He was gruff, but beneath his gruff
exterior, she knew he was a softy. She’d seen flashes of it when his brothers
had been injured and when Chompy had been sick. Raphael had never left his
brothers’ or Chompy’s bedsides until they’d recovered.
Raphael was a bit arrogant and sarcastic and he could be a live wire, but Karai
knew that was due to his insecurity. He felt like he was worthless and didn’t
deserve love. Well, she’d prove him wrong and would shower him with so much
affection he’d never look back and he’d be reassured and he’d love her back and
their sex would be mind blowing and she couldn’t wait any longer to reveal her
feelings. He must feel the same way. How could he not? She was beautiful and
had all the right parts and….
Her thoughts were interrupted by her ringing cell. She glanced at the caller ID
and saw in surprise that it was Raphael. He never called her, so something had
to be up.
“The guys okay, Raph?” she said, trying not to let her nervousness at hearing
his voice show in hers.
“Yeah.”
“So, what’s up then?”
“Um, can I pop ‘round? I kinda need some advice.”
“Now?”
“Bad time?”
“No, no. Uh, just was washing my hair. Sure. I’ll…”
“Ya don’t gotta look smart for me. I’ll be ‘round in a few. “
Shit, Karai thought, as the line went dead. He’s coming over. I was going to
tell him how I felt at Christmas, but today, the twenty first, will have to do.
Karai went into her bedroom and ensured she looked breath taking. Operation
seduce Raphael was in progress.
XXX
Karai was in her bedroom, when Raphael leaped in through the open window,
nearly scaring her out of her wits. “Geez, Raphael. Give a girl a heart attack,
why don’t you?” she said snappily.
Raphael sat down on her bed, eyed her fur coat and boots and said, “Goin’ out?”
“No. I’m just cold, so I wanted to stay warm,” Karai said in an odd purring
tone, looking at Raphael intently.
Her gaze unsettled him and he cleared his throat before saying, “I need
advice.”
“What kind of advice?”
“Well, I asked Leo for help earlier, but he was very vague. Guy ain’t exactly
an expert in the love department.”
“You’re in love?”
“Yeah. Sure am. Have been for months.”
“Me too.”
“Uh, cool.”
“I bet you’re really cold and need some warming up,” Karai said seductively,
stepping closer.
“Huh?” Raphael said. “What are ya talkin’ ‘bout?”
“Come on, Raphael. Even you can’t be that dense,” Karai said, removing her fur
coat and revealing a figure hugging red teddy that made Raphael’s eyes pop out
of his head.
“Uh, Karai….” Raphael stammered, before Karai launched herself at him and began
aggressively kissing him, while undressing him and throwing his trench coat
onto the floor.
Raphael was frozen in shock, as she continued kissing him, her hands moving
down between his legs, stroking, caressing, touching, but when they settled on
his tail and gave it a playful tug, Raphael recovered and shoved her off,
rubbing the lipstick off of his mouth and glaring at her.
“What the fuck, Karai?” he demanded furiously, his green eyes blazing. He
quickly dressed and added, “Have ya lost yer mind?”
“I know you like me, Raphael! That’s why I dressed up for you; I got my
apartment ready for you. It’ll be our love nest and we can become mates and
have babies and…”
“Babies? Yer one delusional, psycho bitch!” Raphael spat. “I don’t want babies.
Least of all with ya! I’m gay! Fuckin’ gay! I came over ta ask what ta
get….Forget it!” Raphael hissed.
“You’re not gay, Raphael. You love me,” Karai said, stepping closer and before
he could move away, she aggressively kissed him again and wrapped her arms
around him.
Raphael’s face darkened, he shoved her away so hard that she fell back onto the
bed, and he yelled, “Yer a crazy bitch! Don’t come near me again or I’m gonna…”
Karai smiled and said, “I know you’re playing hard to get, Raphael, but I’ll
win your heart and you’ll lose your virginity with me and we’ll have adorable
babies!”
“GET SOME FREAKING HELP, YA DELUSIONAL PSYCHO! I AIN’T FUCKIN’ INTERESTED IN YA
AND IF YA COME NEAR THE LAIR, I’LL…”
“You’re a pretty boy, Raphael, and I can make you happy. Stop being silly and
come to bed.”
“Bat shit crazy bitch! I’m warnin’ ya. Stay over from me!” Raphael roared and
leapt out of the window.
Karai grinned. He’s just playing hard to get, but I will win his heart and
we’ll be together eternally. Just wait and see. I’m going to visit him tomorrow
and bring him a special gift. Yes. He’ll love the sex toys. I can’t wait to
show him.
Chapter End Notes
     A/N Thanks for the kudos.
     There will be babies later on, so will Raphael remain adamant about
     not wanting any or will he change his mind?
     Belated Merry Christmas to everyone. Hope you all had a fantastic
     time.
***** The charade *****
Chapter Summary
     Raphael plots to win Donnie, roping Leo in to help him.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Raphael arrived home and almost collided with Leo, who’d left his room to brew
some tea. “Whoa, Raph!” Leo said, holding up a hand. “What’s the urgency and
why do you smell of...? Is that perfume?” Leo sniffed the air and added, “Is
that lipstick on your cheeks?”
Fuck, Raphael thought. Now I’m gonna be grilled by Fearless. As if things
weren’t bad enough. Raphael was about to growl and snap that it wasn’t Leo’s
business when his eyes fell on Donnie and April sitting on the couch together.
They were holding hands and making out. Raphael felt like he’d been kicked in
the gut and his heart shattered into a million pieces. He clenched his fists
and closed his eyes, a mixture of jealousy, rage and sorrow etched on his
handsome face.
Before Leo could comment, Raphael recovered himself, cleared his throat and
said, “Ya know this is a public place. Get a room!”
Donnie and April looked up. The genius’s cheeks were flushed, as he said,
“Sorry, guys. We kind of got carried away. We’ll go to my room. Come on,
April.”
“Ya been together long?” Raphael asked, trying not to sound jealous.
“Six weeks,” April said and stared adoringly at Donnie.
“I see,” Raphael said and his eyes shone, as an idea hit him. He grabbed Leo’s
hand, planted a kiss to a stunned Leo’s cheek and said, “A few weeks longer
than me and Fearless. We hooked up a month ago. It was pretty romantic, wasn’t
it, love? Ya wrote me a poem and declared yer love. Kinda sudden, but so right,
ain’t that right, Fearless?” Raphael said, staring at his brother almost
pleadingly.
Leo understood. Raphael was hurting and he hoped to make Donnie jealous by
saying he was with Leo. The leader thought the plan wouldn’t work, because
Donnie was so besotted, but he didn’t want to upset his little brother and make
him look like an idiot and liar.
Leo smiled, kissed Raphael’s hand and said, “That’s right, my takara.”
“That’s so wonderful!” April gushed. “We can double date. I’m so thrilled for
you two. Aw. You make such a handsome couple. How come you never told us you
were an item before?”
“Yeah,” Donnie said. “I’m delighted for you guys and have no doubt you’ll have
a fantastic life together. Probably the same reason as us, April. We’re private
people, but we couldn’t control ourselves tonight. Anyway, I’m thrilled that
Leo and Raph have finally confessed their feelings. I always thought the
tension between them was due to sexual frustration and chemistry.”
Raphael wanted to punch his genius brother for saying that. Sexual frustration
and chemistry between him and Fearless? As if.
Leo smiled and said, “You’re absolutely right. It just took us a while to
figure that out. Takara, why don’t we have a quick shower before bed? Night,
April and Donnie. Have fun.”
“Night, guys,” April and Donnie said in unison.
“Have fun,” Donnie said and winked.
Leo dragged Raphael to the bathroom and shut the door.
XXX
“Thanks, Leo,” Raphael said, turning his back and undressing. “I appreciate
what ya did.”
“No problem. What are brothers for?”
Raphael turned on the faucet, closed the shower curtain and said, “Ya can stay
there.”
“Now you don’t want me to see you?” Leo teased, trying to cover up his
awkwardness. He hadn’t been alone with Raphael in the bathroom for years. Not
since they were kids.
“Very funny. We’re pretendin’ ta be a couple, Leo, so ya don’t gotta see me
naked! This is just until Donnie realizes what a mistake he’s makin’ and gets
with me. How he can fancy that bitch is beyond me,” Raphael hissed, soaping
himself.
“April’s not a bitch, Raph. She’s sweet and caring.”
“Whatever. I’m a better fit for Donnie. Why can’t he see that?”
“He’s in love, Raph.”
“It’s lust. Not love and it’ll never last. He’ll see we’re made for one
another. Just see.”
“What will you do if that doesn’t happen?”
“Stop bein’ a pessimist. It’ll happen. Come on. I’m sexy and I’d be better in
bed than April.”
“You’re also male and…”
“Shut up, Leo. Yer such a…”
“I’m a realist. This plan of yours might fail and then what? Will you still
continue the charade?”
“It will work!” Raphael snapped.
“So, want to tell me what happened and why you smelled of perfume?” Leo asked,
changing the subject.
“Karai has this weird idea that I’m in love with her and she tried ta seduce
me. I mean, really. Why would I want that skank? I’m gay and even if I weren’t,
she ain’t the kinda girl I’d pick. I’d want someone decent and affectionate and
sweet. It was horrible, Leo. She kissed me, pushed me back on her bed,
undressed me and was kissin’ me. I hated it! She stole my first kiss, ya know,
and it was awful. Hey, this charade will kill two birds with one stone. She’ll
back off and I’ll get Donnie. I’m such a genius!”
“Nothing like self-praise,” Leo said dryly.
“What ‘bout ya, Fearless? Ya like anyone?” Raphael asked, turning off the
faucet and opening the shower curtain. “Keep yer back turned, Leo. Don’t look,”
Raphael said, as he reached for his red towel on the rail.
“I did, but he didn’t feel the same way.”
“That sucks, man,” Raphael said and wrapped the towel around himself. “Wait.
Yer gay? Golden boy likes guys? Wow. I’m shocked. I always thought ya would
like chicks.”
“No.”
“Well, chin up, Fearless. The right guy will come along. Ya just gotta be
patient.”
“I suppose. You finished?”
“Yep,” Raphael said, picking up his gear. “I’m gonna go ta bed. I’ll see ya in
the mornin’.”
“Our story will be more believable if we share the same room.”
Raphael whirled around and said, “Us share a room?”
“That’s right. You can remain dressed and I’ll do the same if it makes you feel
less uncomfortable.”
“Yer a genius too, Leo!” Raphael said happily. “I’ll see ya in a few. Just
wanna get a few things.”
Leo dragged a hand down his face, as he watched his brother head to his room
and thought, what the hell am I doing? I love him and it’s not pretend to me,
but it’s all pretend to him, so I’m letting myself in for heartache. Still,
I’ll be gone in a few days, so I can do it for Raph until I leave and pretend
it’s a game on my part too, right?
XXX
Ten minutes later, Leo was in bed when he saw Raphael enter. The hothead was
dressed in red boxers and carried his red pillow and a small suitcase. “Just a
few things,” Raphael said, setting down his case “I’ll pack them away in the
mornin’. I’m exhausted. Ya better not steal the covers.”
Leo pulled the bedspread back and said, “I don’t. As I recall, Mikey always did
and I relied on you for heat. You were always so warm.”
“Whatever,” Raphael said and climbed into bed, pulling the covers over himself.
“This is weird.”
“What is?” Leo asked, trying not to tremble. He was so nervous with Raphael in
such close proximity and he could smell Raphael’s intense musk scent. It was
intoxicating and…
“Why are ya nervous?”
“I’m not.”
“Yer tremblin’.”
“I’m fine!”
“Ya ain’t aroused, are ya?”
“Excuse me?” Leo said in astonishment.
“Outside the bedroom, Leo, we’re mates, but here we’re just brothers and I
don’t wanna smell yer arousal or see ya naked, okay?”
“I get the message, Raphael.”
“Wonderful. And there won’t be any screwin’ either.”
“I said I got the message, Raph,” Leo said testily.
“Cool. Anyway, it’s kinda strange sharin’ a bed with ya. I hope ya don’t mind,
but I do snore.”
Leo shrugged and said, “I’m an early riser. I’ll try not to wake you.”
“Thanks. This room is kinda sparse. Ya mind if I bring more of my stuff in
here, like my weights and so on, so I can make it more like home?”
“How long are you planning on staying?”
“I reckon our plan will work in a week tops, but I just wanna make it feel like
my place too.”
“Fine. Any other requests?”
“I wanna redecorate. Hang some posters. The walls are kinda bare and I don’t
like that painting,” Raphael said and pointed at a bearded Japanese warrior
holding a severed head in his hands and grinning maliciously. “I don’t care if
he’s yer idol. He gives me the creeps and I feel like he’s watchin’ me. And
I’ll bring Chompy of course. He was asleep when I went ta my room, so I didn’t
wake him, but I’ll bring him tomorrow. Can I get rid of the painting now?”
“If you want,” Leo said, trying not to show his exasperation.
“Cool,” Raphael said. He jumped out of bed, took down the painting and placed
it on the desk. “That goes ta the Dojo tomorrow. I only want happy things in
here.”
Leo sighed. His brother was being demanding for someone, who was only
pretending to be his lover and Chompy would be a handful too. He’d hardly get
any rest.
“Anything else?” Leo asked.
“Let’s see. How ‘bout we paint the walls cream or beige? White’s borin’ and
maybe we can change the bedding?”
“It’s not necessary if it’s just for a few days!” Leo protested. “Honestly,
you’re acting more like a chick wanting to decorate her boyfriend’s bachelor
pad to make it more like her home than you are pretending to like me.”
“Whatever. I just wanna feel like at home. What’s so wrong with that? It’ll
make it more believable if we do that.”
“Fine. Go ahead, Raph. Anyway, in a few days you’ll have Donnie and I won’t be
here, so I don’t care.”
Green eyes met sapphire and Raphael said, “What do ya mean?”
“I’m leaving. I talked to Sensei and I’m leaving shortly after Christmas.”
“Why would ya wanna leave? Don’t we matter ta ya?”
“I need to find myself, Raph. I’m not as good a leader as I can be and I have
some personal shit to deal with.”
“Wow. Ya said shit,” Raphael mocked. “Yer halo’s gonna…”
“Don’t ridicule me!” Leo snapped. “I have some stuff I’m dealing with and I
need to leave.”
“But that’s BS. Yer a good leader and a good brother and ya can’t. We need ya.
Hey, is it because of that guy that yer leavin’? If it is, I can knock some
sense into him. Is it Mikey?”
“What?”
“Well, let’s be honest, Leo. Humans don’t dig us, so ya have ta like Donnie, me
or Mikey. I know it ain’t Donnie or me, so it’s gotta be Mikey. Ya want me ta
talk ta the knucklehead and knock some sense into him?”
Leo’s eyes flew wide in horror and he said, “No!”
“Why not? Yer just gonna walk away and let the person ya love be with someone
else?”
“That’s exactly what I’m going to do! Leave Mikey alone, Raph. He’s happy and
that’s all that matters to me.”
“Yer so noble, Fearless,” Raphael said, still determined to talk to Mikey.
“It’s not about being noble, Raph. When you love someone and they don’t feel
the same way, you set them free….”
“And if they love ya, they come back ta ya. I know that quote, but whoever said
it is dumb, Leo. If ya love someone, ya fight for them and don’t give up. I
think yer stupid, but whatever. It’s your life. I think yer makin’ a mistake by
walkin’ away and leavin’. I’ll miss ya.”
“You will?” Leo said in surprise.
“Of course. Yer my big brother and it’ll mean that I’m leader now. Thanks a
heap for that. Now I’ll have less time ta myself. Yer so selfish, Leo.”
“No, Raph. I’m not and I wish you understood," Leo said miserably.
Raphael turned his shell on his brother, not wanting to talk anymore, and to
his immense surprise, tears filled his eyes. Why am I sad, he thought? Fearless
is leavin’, but so what? I should be glad he is, so he’ll be offa my shell, but
I feel… I don’t love Leo, do I? No. I love Donnie. No. Leo can’t go. He has ta
stay. Leavin’ shortly after Christmas is too soon for our plan ta work. We need
longer, because Donnie’s in the honeymoon period with April. I just need Leo
here for three more weeks and Donnie will be mine. I gotta convince Leo ta stay
longer. I know. I’ll get sick or somethin’ and Leo will be wracked with guilt
and will postpone his trip.
Raphael fell asleep, unaware of his brother silently crying next to him.
 
Chapter End Notes
     A/N Will Raph's plan work?
***** Misunderstanding *****
Chapter Summary
     Mikey tells Casey some surprising news. And convinced Mikey cheated
     on Leo, Raph teaches him a lesson for breaking his big brother's
     heart.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Mikey slipped out of the lair at 11 p.m. and ran through the tunnels until he
came to the manhole that wasn’t far from his destination. He went up it and ran
to the house on the corner. Knocking twice on the door, he said, “It’s me.”
Casey opened the door seconds later, dragged him inside, closed the door and
smashed his lips onto Mikey’s in a spine-tingling kiss and wrapped his arms
around him. Mikey churred in appreciation, as hands roamed and clothing was
quickly shed.
Still kissing, they moved to the black haired teen’s bedroom and Casey placed
Mikey onto the bed, looking at him lovingly. Casey broke the kiss and said, “I
missed you, Mikey.”
“So did I. Fuck me.”
Casey chuckled and said, “You don’t have to ask me twice. Man, you’re an eager
turtle, aren’t you?”
“Hurry. We only have a few hours before I need to get home and I want to make
the most of it. Your dad’s not here, is he?”
“No. At his girlfriend’s.”
Casey crawled between Mikey’s legs and lapped at Mikey’s slit, until the sea
green turtle dropped down with a low growl, his cock semi-erect and leaking
precum. He stuck two fingers into Mikey’s slit, prepping him, as his own cock
dropped down and throbbed with desire.
He felt blessed. Mikey was adorable with his blue eyes, freckles, muscular
body, toned legs, firm butt and he had the cutest tail. He loved Mikey’s
intense musk scent too and the fact that he was the sweetest in temperament.
Kind, affectionate, he gave just as much as he took, was passionate, loyal,
understanding and never made him feel worthless. In fact, he made Casey feel
like he was special and deserving of love. He’d never felt like that, having
always had a tumultuous relationship with his livewire, alcoholic and brutal
father, who often beat him, especially when he was drunk. Casey had never known
his mom, who’d died of a heroin overdose when he was a month old and she was
twenty. His father never spoke about her either and all Casey had of her were a
stuffed teddy, two photos of her as a younger woman and her engagement ring.
Judging Mikey ready, Casey lined his dick up at Mikey’s entrance, thrust inside
of him and began pounding away, soon forming a steady rhythm and making Mikey
groan, as he fisted the bedsheets, his eyes rolled back in ecstasy.
They’d been lovers for two months and had lost their virginity with one
another. They’d met a year earlier and it had been love at first sight, but too
shy to say anything, they‘d kept their feelings hidden. Then one month prior,
Mikey had plucked up the courage and asked to talk to Casey alone. He’d then
told him how he felt. Leo knew about them and was cool about it, but the other
brothers didn’t. They hoped to tell Donnie and Raphael at Christmas.
Casey accelerated the pace, his own eyes clouded with desire, as he watched his
mate flush in pleasure, as Casey repeatedly stabbed his prostate. Casey thought
Mikey was the most perfect being he’d ever known. He was a turtle, sure, but he
didn’t see that when he was with Mikey. He saw him for who he was and not what
he was. Mikey was a teenager, just like him, and the missing piece. His ying to
his yang. His everything. And he couldn’t imagine being without him.
Casey sped up more, thrusting harder and deeper and a deep rumble rolled up
Mikey’s throat.
The black-haired teen studied his mate, thinking how adorable Mikey’s sounds
were. He loved pulling them out of him and knowing that only he was able to do
that.
Casey was a bit worried about what Donnie and Raphael would think of their
union, but Mikey had assured them they’d have the seal of approval, because
Casey was like family and loved by them. And his brothers would do anything to
make Mikey happy. If Mikey loved Casey, they’d accept it. And Mikey had
reasoned that Donnie had April. He’d seen them kiss, unbeknownst to them. And
he was going to ensure Leo and Raphael got together too, thinking that if
everyone had mates, they wouldn’t meddle in his life.
A few minutes later, Mikey churred and said, “I’m going to cum. Fuck. Fuck.
Fuck. Casey!” He climaxed, spraying his lover white with his milky and salty
essence and panting, his cheeks still flushed.
“Mikey!” Casey yelled, as he too came, filling his lover with hot jets of cum.
Casey pulled out, kissed Mikey’s lips and lay down, pulling Mikey close to bask
in the afterglow. He’d never loved snuggling before, thinking it silly and
girly, but since he’d been with Mikey, he loved it. Sex was always fantastic,
but cuddling with Mikey was wonderful too. Mikey made him feel okay to tune
into his softer side and to be more open with his feelings, instead of always
bottling them in. He felt warm and gooey, a pulling in his chest and
butterflies whenever he was around Mikey and he was positive their love would
last forever.
Basking in the afterglow, Mikey said, “I love you so much, Case.”
“Love you too, honey.”
“Being with you has brought purpose to my life and I know we’ll always be
together, unless…”
“Unless what, Mikey?”
“You couldn’t handle my secret.”
“What secret, Mikey? You’re alarming me. Did you cheat?”
“Of course not, but I’ve been feeling sick and throwing up a lot for a few
weeks. I think I’m gravid, Case, and if I am that means…”
“We’ll be parents,” Casey said in amazement. “Are you sure? I thought you were
a male? How can you lay eggs?”
“I believe I’m intersex if that’s the case. I’ve kept my condition a secret
from everyone and I wanted to tell you, but I was so afraid you’d hate me and
would leave me and…” Tears filled Mikey’s eyes and he said, “I understand if
you don’t want this. It’s a lot and I…”
“Are you kidding me?” Casey said and smiled. “It’s a shock, Mikey, but I want
the babies and I want you. I’ll never stop wanting you.”
“Really?” Mikey said and beamed through his tears.
“Absolutely. I know it’ll be challenging, but we’ll get through it together.”
“Maybe you can move in with me. I’ll talk to Sensei. Would you?”
“I’d go anywhere with you, Mikey,” Casey said and kissed him. “Our babies are
going to be so cute, especially if they take after you. I’m such a lucky guy.”
“I could burst with joy,” Mikey said happily and kissed him. “I never dreamed
I’d find love and would be a dad.”
“Me either. You complete me, Mikey, and I’d be nothing without you.”
“Ditto. You’re my dream come true and I more than love you. I adore you and I
always will.”
Casey kissed him tenderly and rested his head on Mikey’s plastron, inhaling his
musky scent, and they soon fell asleep, both confident they’d have a long and
terrific life together.
Mikey rose at four a.m. Casey’s dad sometimes returned home earlier than
expected and he didn’t want him to see him, so he’d leave. He quickly dressed,
smiled at his sleeping lover, left and headed home, elated that Casey had been
thrilled with his news. He wasn’t sure how his family would take it, but they’d
have to accept it, because he wasn’t going to give his baby or Casey up.
XXX
Raphael got up to pee just after four fifteen and was on his way to the
bathroom, when he collided with Mikey, who’d just arrived home and who was
heading to bed.
“Where the heck ya been, Mikey?” Raphael demanded.
“Out. I don’t have to tell you where,” Mikey said evenly. “Step aside, Raph. I
won’t let you intimidate me.”
Raphael sniffed the air and Mikey froze, knowing his secret was about to be
revealed. He’d wanted to tell them at Christmas, but Raphael had had to spoil
his plans, like he always did!
“Why do ya smell of Casey?” Raphael hissed, his green eyes flinty. “Ya bangin’
him?”
“Not your business, Raph. Focus on your own life,” Mikey said frostily.
Raphael’s blood boiled, his eyes went white, he raised his fists and aimed a
sucker punch at an unprepared Mikey’s jaw, sending him sprawling to the ground
and holding his aching jaw.
“What the hell, Raph?” Mikey shouted. “Are you crazy? Rhetorical question.
You’re insane!”
“That’s for breakin’ Leo’s heart,” Raphael raged, his green eyes flashing. “How
could ya fuckin’ cheat on such a kind and lovin’ person like Leo with Casey of
all people? Yer a fuckin’ asshole, Mikey!
Mikey suddenly understood. Raphael thought he and Leo had hooked up, but where
had he gotten that ridiculous idea from? He and Leo had never been anything
other than brotherly.
“Leo’s…”
Before Mikey could comment, Raphael punched him again, his face twisted in
anger.
“You have the wrong end of the stick, Raph!” Mikey said.
“I don’t think so! Ya fuckin’ cheated on Leo with Casey and broke his heart.
How could ya be such a callous prick?” Raphael yelled and kicked his brother
hard in the ribs.
Mikey grunted in pain and said, “Raph, you’re wrong. Stop!”
“What the hell’s going on here?” Leo demanded furiously, entering the room. "I
heard raised voices." Taking in a sobbing Mikey, who was holding his side, as
pain coursed through him, Leo said, “Mikey, what the heck happened? Raph?”
“I’ll tell ya what, Leo,” Raphael said. “I taught the bastard a lesson for
breakin’ yer heart. He’s been messin’ ‘round with Casey! I know we have our
difficulties, Leo, but I still watch out for ya and I’ll defend ya, ya know
that. No one hurts my big bro and gets away with it…”
Leo’s eyes flew wide in horror and he said, “You’re wrong, Raph. He never
cheated and Mikey and I were never together. He’s been with Casey for two
months and they’re madly in love.”
 
 
Chapter End Notes
     A/N Now Leo has some explaining to do. lol. How will he get out of
     this mess?
***** Tragedy *****
Chapter Summary
     Mikey suffers a tremendous loss.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Mikey suddenly let out a blood curdling scream and clutched his stomach, tears
streaming down his cheeks . “Get Donnie,” he wept. “I think I’m having a
miscarriage.”
“Baby?” Leo and Raphael said in stunned unison?”
“NOW!” Mikey roared. “Get him. Oh, my sweet baby. Please hold on.”
“I’ll stay with Mikey, Raph,” Leo said, rushing to Mikey’s side and grabbing
his hand. “You get Donnie.”
“I’m on it. Hey, Mikey. I’m sorry, bro. I…”
“Now, Raphael!” Leo said in his most authoritative tone and Raphael left the
room.
“Sh, Mikey,” Leo said. “You’re going to be okay. You and your baby. I promise.
Donnie’s going to ensure it. How far along are you and I thought you were a
boy?”
“I’m intersex. A few weeks. I told Casey tonight and he was stoked. We both
are….” Mikey shrieked, as a stab of pain of pain hit him and Leo saw blood
between his legs.
“Try to stay calm, Mikey,” Leo said, swallowing down his panic. He knew he had
to be strong for his little brother. He stroked Mikey’s face and said, “Donnie
will be here soon. Breathe. Everything’s going to be fine.”
“It hurts, Leo!” Mikey wailed. “Make it stop. Please. I can’t bear it. And do
whatever you can to save the baby.”
Donnie appeared with Raphael and April and said, “We need to get him to the
infirmary fast. Hopefully, we’re not too late.”
Leo nodded and he and Raphael lifted a sobbing Mikey up and carried him into
the infirmary.
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Mikey lay on a stretcher, holding his belly and sobbing uncontrollably. Donnie
said, “Raph, you get cloths. Leo, stay with Mikey, okay?”
“No,” Mikey said sharply. “I don’t want Raphael here. He’s the reason I’m this
way and he’s to blame if my baby dies. I only want you and Leo here!”
“I’ll be outside,” Raphael said sadly. “I’m sorry, Mikey. I really am. I
thought ya hurt Leo and ya know I’m protective of him and that I sometimes get
the wrong end…”
“FUCKING GET OUT!” Mikey yelled, his face darkening. “I hate you!”
A guilt ridden Raphael silently left, his shoulders slumped and his spirits
low, followed by April.
 
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Leo fetched a damp cloth and wiped Mikey’s forehead when he returned. “How are
you feeling, Mikey?” Donnie asked.
“How is my baby? I need to know. ARGH!” Mikey screamed.
Donnie peered between Mikey’s legs, looking at the blood loss, and said
miserably,“Mikey, you’re having a miscarriage. I need you to push. I’m sorry,
but there’s nothing else I can do. You have to push.”
“I’m here, Mikey,” Leo said gently and gripped his hand. “You can do this, my
brave brother. I’m here for you. I love you. It’s…”
“My baby’s dead?” Mikey wept, tears in his eyes. “No! That can’t be true. You
have to do something….You’re making this up, right? The baby’s fine and I…”
“Mikey,” Donnie said softly. “I’m not kidding. You need to push. I’m so sorry.
I really am.”
“I want my baby,” Mikey cried. “I want my baby. It’s all Raphael’s fault. Me
and Casey were so… Oh, Casey. He needs to know.”
“I’ll get Casey,” Leo said. “But you need to push, Mikey. You can do it. I got
you. You’re not alone.”
Mikey nodded glumly and pushed, letting out an anguished sob, his heart
shattered. He’d been so looking forward to his kid and now the baby was dead.
It was all Raphael’s fault and he’d never forgive him. Raphael was a murderer.
Mikey pushed for twenty excruciating minutes, before a large white mass exited
his body.
“It’s out,” Donnie said. “I’m so sorry, Mikey. I really am. I know you’d have
been a fantastic dad.”
“I’m so sorry, Mikey,” Leo said, patting Mikey’s shoulder. “I agree. You’d have
terrific. I’m here for you. We both are and we’ll all get through this, okay?”
Mikey gazed at the mass in a mixture of disbelief, grief, shock and rage. His
baby was dead and there was nothing he could do. Nothing.
“I want to be alone,” Mikey said in a broken voice, his gaze not leaving the
mass.
“I don’t think you should be, Mikey,” Donnie said. “You’ve just experienced a
traumatic event. You need someone with you.”
“I said I want to be alone!” Mikey shouted, picking up the vase on the bedside
table. “Get out, both of you. I want to be alone with my baby!”
“We need to discuss funeral arrangements when you’re ready,” Donnie said. “And
I need to check your other injuries…..”
“I SAID GET FUCK OUT! NOW. LEAVE ME AND MY BABY ALONE. YOU’RE NOT TAKING HIM!”
Mikey said and threw the vase, which narrowly missed Donnie, and crashed into
the wall, smashing into smithereens.
“I’ll be back later to check on you,” Leo said. “I love you, Mikey.”
“OUT!”
Leo and Donnie left and a traumatized and heartsore Mikey said, as tears fell
down his cheeks, “I’m so sorry, my precious baby. Daddy loves you and will
never forget you. I love you so much and I always will and I’ll get justice for
you. I promise, my sweet baby. Raphael will pay.” </p>
XXXX
 
Raphael and April had barely spoken and hovered in the passage outside of the
infirmary. He was too wrapped up in his own thoughts and she was a bundle of
nervous energy, continuously pacing to the point of irritating him, but he’d
resisted the desire to snap. He’d already hurt Mikey and possibly caused a
miscarriage. He didn’t want to hurt anyone else. </p>
 
xxxx
 Don and Leo appeared. Raphael looked up and asked hopefully, “Is Mikey okay?”
“No,” Donnie said. “I’m afraid not. He miscarried the baby and he won’t let me
examine his other injuries. I have to! He won’t let anyone touch him.”
“He miscarried?” Raphael said in horror, his green eyes wide.
“That’s right,” Leo said sadly. “He was a few weeks along. The baby’s lying on
the stretcher with him. I need to call Casey. Poor Mikey.”
“It’s my fault,” Raphael said despondently. “I caused him ta. I’m such an
asshole. I…”
“You are,” April yelled, her blue eyes flashing. “Poor Mikey. Now he may never
be a dad. You should be ashamed of yourself, Raphael.”
“Raph didn’t know Mikey was gravid,” Leo said. “He wouldn’t have hurt him if
he’d known. You know he loves Mikey. He was jealous and honestly believed Mikey
had cheated on me and that Mikey was competition. I know it’s nuts, because I’m
with Raph and I love him, but…”
“It’s sweet of you to take your mate’s side,” April said sarcastically. “But
nothing excuses his behavior, Leo. He must have been extremely brutal to have
caused a miscarriage. I wouldn’t forgive him if I were Mikey. Raphael deserves
seppuku. That if he’s not banished from the clan for his despicable actions!”
“SILENCE!” A male voice boomed.
Everyone turned around to see Splinter tapping his cane on the ground, a stern
expression on his face, his brown eyes flashing. “What’s going on? I get up to
get water and find you arguing like kindergarten kids.”
“I’m sure Raphael can fill you in, Sensei!” April hissed. “Isn’t that right,
Raphael?”
“Raph’s already feeling like shit. He doesn’t need you attacking him as well,”
Leo said furiously and grabbed Raphael’s hand. “It was a horrible tragedy and
Raph regrets it. Look at the pain on his face. He’s suffering.”
“Cry me a river, Leo!” April said heatedly. “It’s nothing compared to what
Mikey’s going through.”
“I’m sorry for Mikey too,” Donnie said. “But arguing, who’s to blame isn’t
going to help the situation, April.”
“So you’re taking Raphael’s side, Donnie?” April demanded acidly.
“SILENCE!” Splinter roared. “Raphael, what happened?”
Raphael squeezed Leo’s hand, thanking him for his support. Then he nervously
rubbed the back of his neck and said, “I lost my temper, because I thought
Mikey had cheated on Leo and could be potential completion. I mean, want Leo
back. Me and Leo have been together for a while and I’m still insecure ‘bout
things. I attacked Mikey and I’m so sorry. I never woulda if I’d known he was
gravid,” Raphael wailed, tears running down his cheeks. “I love the kid, even
though he ticks me off. Ya know I do. I love all of my bros. They’re my
universe. And Mikey suffered a miscarriage. It’s my fault. I’m so sorry,
Sensei.” He bowed his head and said, “I deserve seppuku. My actions have been
dishonorable and I’ll understand if ya order that. My only request is that I
get one last night with Leo.”
Splinter blinked in surprise and said, “You and Leonardo are a couple?”
“Yep. For a while now and we’re happy. I’m so sorry, Sensei. I know I don’t
deserve forgiveness.”
“I need to meditate on things. Leonardo, I would like you to join me.”
“Hai, Sensei.”
“Is that it?” April snapped. “You’re just going to meditate, while Mikey mourns
the loss of his child?”
Splinter bristled and said firmly, “I am the clan leader and patriarch. You are
merely dating Donatello, Miss O’ Neil. I think you have overstepped your place
in this family. I do not have to explain my actions to you and it is not your
place to question me. It is not your business and is a family affair. Please
remember that. Leonardo, you will come with me. Raphael, you will go to your
bedroom and remain there….”
April whirled on Donnie and shouted, “Are you going to let him talk to me that
way? I’m your damn girlfriend and he’s telling me this isn’t my business. Of
course it is. I love Mikey and…”
“Dad’s right. I know you love Mikey, but Dad doesn’t have to explain himself to
you. He wouldn’t have to, even if we were married.”
“You’re a wimp, Donnie!” April seethed, removing her promise ring. She threw it
at him and said, “You’re such a wuss for always letting your dad tell you what
to do and for never sticking up for me. I’m done!”
April glowered at them all and stalked off out of the lair.
Donnie watched her leave, his eyes filled with tears, misery etched on his
face.
“I’m sorry, Donnie,” Raphael said.
“Not your fault, Raph. Anyway, the priority is Mikey.”
Splinter nodded and said, “I am sorry about Miss O' Neil. We'll discuss that
later, but Michelangelo's the priority right now. I want you to be with him,
Donatello. Who is the father of Michelangelo’s baby?”
“Casey,” Leo said. “I’m supposed to call him.
“Call him. Then join me in the dojo. Raphael, you’ll stay in your bedroom until
I summon you.”
“Hai, Sensei.”
Raphael watched the others go to their various destinations. Then he went into
his room and curled up into a ball in bed, weeping bitterly. I’m so sorry,
Mikey, he thought. I really am. I hope ya can forgive me. I deserve seppuku.
I’m gonna take it like a man if Dad tells me he agrees. I’m a murderer and
nothin’ will ever wipe the blood offa my hands.
Chapter End Notes
     A/N Will Mikey ever forgive Raph? How will Casey react to the news?
***** Raph's punishment *****
Chapter Summary
     Splinter craftily comes up with a punishment for Raphael that he
     hopes will keep Leo at home indefinitely.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Leo dialed Casey’s number and said, “Casey, I need you to come here pronto.
Mikey needs you.”
“What happened, Leo?” Casey asked worriedly.
“I don’t want to discuss it over the phone.”
“Something happened to the baby, right? How’s Mikey?”
“I’m so sorry…”
Casey let out an anguished wail and said, “I’m on my way. Tell Mikey I love
him.” Then the line went dead.
Poor Mikey and Casey, Leo thought. Casey’s going to go mental when he learns
Raph caused the miscarriage. Shit. Christmas is supposed to be about love and
joy. Instead, it’s bringing heartache and tragedy. And what if Sensei agrees
with Raph? We can’t lose our brother. I can’t lose him. I know he did a shitty
thing, but his death won’t change anything. He’s still our brother and we need
him. Time to face the music and to see what Sensei thinks, Leo thought
dejectedly and went into the dojo.
XXX
Splinter was sitting on the tatami mat and said, “Sit down, Leonardo.” Leo sat
and waited for his dad to speak. “How long have you and Raphael been mates?”
“We aren’t really. It’s a charade. Raph likes Donnie and wanted to pretend to
be with me to make Don jealous. I suppose that’s over now, because April’s
gone. And life can go back to normal or whatever normal is. I helped him,
because I didn’t want him to look foolish and a liar in front of April and Don
when he said we were dating. No harm caused. Raph can move in on Donnie and I
can leave as planned.”
“So even though it hurt you, you still went ahead with the charade. That says a
lot about your character, Leonardo. Always noble and looking out for your
family, even at the cost of your happiness.”
“It’s no big deal.”
“But it’s not a charade to you, is it?”
“No,” Leo said and blushed. “My feelings for Raph are strong, but he’ll never
feel the same way. He’s crazy about Don. It doesn’t matter. I’ll be gone soon
and my time away will lessen my feelings for him. I’m positive."
“I’d like you to fetch Raphael. I’ve made a decision.”
“You’re not going to agree to what he said, are you?” Leo asked fearfully.
“Now, Leonardo,” Splinter said.
Leo left and Splinter thought, I don’t want Leonardo to leave. I have a plan. I
hope it’ll work and will convince Leonardo stay indefinitely.
Leo arrived with a frightened looking Raphael a few minutes later. “Kneel
Raphael and Leonardo,” Splinter said.
“I accept whatever punishment ya dish out, Dad,” Raphael said bravely, his eyes
lowered to the ground. “I killed Mikey’s baby and the only fittin’ punishment
is death. I…”
“Silence, Raphael, and look at me, both of you.”
His sons raised their heads and Leo said, “Dad, please don’t let Raph commit
seppuku. Let me. I’ll take his….”
“Silence, Leonardo,” Splinter said. “It is noble of you to take your brother’s
place, Leonardo, but I don't want death. I have a different punishment in mind.
Raphael, your brother has informed me  you have feelings for Donatello and are
pretending to be mates to make Donatello jealous.”
“Yeah, but we don’t gotta do that no more, Sensei. April’s outta the picture,
so I can woo Donnie. Hear that, Fearless? Me and Donnie will be bonded when ya
return from yer trip.”
“Leonardo’s not leaving yet, Raphael. I’ve been informed that the Ancient One
has plans and won’t be able to help Leonardo until February at the earliest.
Now for your punishment. You’ll carry on your charade with Leonardo, you’ll
share a room together, will…”
"What the hell?” Raphael roared, his green eyes flashing. “I just told ya I
like Donnie, Sensei!”
“Raphael, be quiet. You’ll eat your meals together, will train together and
you’ll spend all of your free time together.”
“What a fuckin’ buncha crap!” Raphael hissed. “I woulda preferred sepukku! I
don’t love Fearless. Why do I gotta spend all of my time with him? Shit. Life
ain’t fuckin’ fair! Fearless, why ain’t ya complainin’? It ain’t like ya dig me
either!”
“I respect your decision, Sensei,” Leonardo said and bowed his head.
“Language, Raphael!” Splinter said sternly. “While a tragedy happened and my
heart breaks for Michelangelo, I do not think it warrants your death. You’re
dismissed. I hope your mate can drum some…”
“He ain’t my damn mate!” Raphael snapped. “How long do I gotta spend time with
him?”
“As long as I wish,” Splinter said dryly.
“But, Sensei,” Raphael said, throwing himself at Splinter’s feet. “Leo’s a
snooze fest. I’m gonna be bored shitless. All he does is meditate and read his
damn war books! Please don’t make me be with him! He’s an uptight…”
“You might find there’s more to your brother than you think. Please stop
grovelling. It’s not dignified.”
“Like what?” Raphael demanded, raising his head. “I wanna be with Donnie.
Sensei...Fearless, say somethin’, besides agreein’ with Dad!”
“You’ll share Leonardo’s room and will meditate with him too. Your brother’s a
fine warrior and….”
“Borin’,” Raphael said heatedly, sitting back on his heels. “Dad, this is a
lame punishment. I’d rather….”
“There’ll be no topside for six months. You’re dismissed,” Splinter said and
closed his eyes, signalling the end of the conversation.
Raphael rose to his feet and stormed off to the room he shared with Leo,
slamming the door behind him.
Leo sighed and said, “Thank you for not letting sepukku be carried out, Dad,
but Raphael isn’t going to handle his punishment very well. Expect arguing.”
“I’m positive he won’t, but I do not care. He is lucky I am a benevolent
Sensei. Others wouldn’t have been as lenient. Good luck, my son.”
“Dad, do you have an ulterior motive with the punishment?”
“Not at all,” Splinter lied. “I merely hope some of your attributes rub off on
Raphael.”
“How long is the punishment for?”
“Like I told Raphael, as long as I wish.“
"Oh. Well, it’ll be tough being around Raph, but I’m sure I can keep my
feelings to myself. I have done for years. It’s not like he’ll ever like me
back.”
“You’re dismissed.”
“Hai, Sensei,” Leo said. He bowed his head and left.
Yes, Splinter thought. I believe Raphael will love Leonardo for real when he
spends time with him and Leonardo will then not want to leave. And with Raphael
in close proximity all of the time, I believe Leonardo won’t be able to hold
his feelings back either. They’ll be mates for real and will have a long and
happy future together.
XXX
Leo found Raphael in his bedroom packing his things away in the cupboard. “Can
ya believe it, Fearless?” he said irately. “Donnie’s now single and we still
gotta do the damn charade! Fuckin’ blows. Fuck it. Now I gotta spend all of my
time with ya. Dullsville.”
“I’m sorry I’m so boring, Raph,” Leo said sarcastically. “And that you hate
spending time with me. It won’t be easy for me either with your bitching. You
whine incessantly about everything.”
“Because I got reason ta moan. At least Donnie does somethin’ . All ya do is
meditate.”
“That’s not all I do, Raph. I also enjoy Kanji, tending my bonsai, reading…”
“Yawn.”
“You’re not exactly fun either. All you do is lift weights, bitch and work on
your bike.”
“Hey, hey!” Raphael said crossly. “There’s more ta me than that and ya make me
sound like a drama queen.”
“If the shoe fits. The punishment will end soon, Raph, and then…”
“Not soon enough,” Raphael huffed and threw himself onto the bed. “Just my
luck. Donnie’s single and I still gotta be with ya. What’s Sensei tryin’ ta
achieve? He better not think I’d fall for ya. I mean, yer not even my type.
Donnie…”
“I get Donnie ticks your boxes,” Leo snapped. “You don’t have to keep reminding
me and how awful I am.”
“Jealous?” Raphael said and smirked.
“Hardly,” Leo said and climbed into bed. “You’re not my type either. You’re
brash, rude, sarcastic, temperamental…”
“There’s more ta me than that. I got a tender side.”
“Really? Could have fooled me. Why don’t you show it if you have one?”
“Why don’t ya express yer feelings?” Raphael retorted. “Why do ya always
repress them, like an uptight chick?”
“You first.”
"Maybe I’m scared people will think I’m weak and unmanly if I show it.”
“Me too. I’m the leader. I’m not supposed to. I have to be cool, calm and
collected. I can’t let my feelings cloud my judgement. It could spell trouble
in battle.”
“And yer hormones. Ya repress that too. I sometimes think yer a hundred and one
instead of a sixteen-year-old. Sheesh.”
“I often think you’re just a brute,” Leo said tersely.
“I ain’t. Look, how ‘bout I’ll show ya a little of my tender side, seein’ that
we’re still doin’ this charade? And ya will show yer emotions more and let down
yer guard. I don’t wanna just bicker with ya. It’ll be unpleasant.”
“You never had problems with arguing before.”
“Yeah. But I could go ta my room. We’re stuck together for goodness knows how
long. Least we can do is try ta get along. I’m willin’. So, what do ya say?”
“Okay.”
“Cool. Hey, how’s Mikey doing?”
“Not good. Donnie’s with him. Casey’s on his way.”
“Do ya think he’ll ever forgive me?” Raphael asked sadly.
“Mikey’s not one to bear grudges, but this…I have no idea.”
“I shoulda died. I killed his baby. I’m an asshole,” Raphael said despondently.
Leo placed a hand on his arm and said, “Raph, you didn’t know Mikey was gravid
and were sort of being protective of me. It was a tragic accident.”
Still,” Raphael said, tears in his eyes. “I killed the baby, Leo. I’m a
monster. I…don’t think I can ever forgive myself.”
“You’re not a monster,” Leo said, removing his hand and squeezing Raphael’s
hand. “It was a tragedy. It’s gut wrenching and we’re all very sad, but none of
us think you’re a monster. We love you and we always will.”
“Mikey don't and Casey will hate me too. He has every right. I took away his
chance ta be a dad. I’d be mad if someone did that ta me. Not that I’m ever
gonna be a dad, but….Leo, what am I gonna do? I love Mikey and I’m sorry. I
wish I could take back what I did. I wish I could make it better,” Raphael said
desolately.
Leo looked at his inconsolable brother and said, “There’s nothing you can do,
but wait and give Mikey space until he’s ready to talk. He might find it in his
heart to forgive you, but you have to let him be. He’s a wreck understandably.”
“Yer right. Do ya hate me?”
"“While I’m saddened by what happened, I don’t hate you. How could I? You’re my
little brother and I’ll always love you. It’s a terrible tragedy, Raph. We’ll
get through it and I hope you can forgive yourself in time.”
“Thank ya. I appreciate it. It’s almost Christmas, Leo, and I fuckin’ spoiled
it. Mikey was so lookin’ forward ta it and…”
Leo took his hand and kissed it, making Raphael blush, and said, “Stop beating
yourself up. We’ll get through this. Have faith…”
“Why did ya kiss me?” Raphael demanded, pulling his hand away.
“I was trying to comfort you. That’s all.”
“That better be all, because I still love Donnie and only want him. Leo, look,
we may be sharin’ a room and spendin’ time together, but I’ll never love ya the
way ya want. So if ya got any ideas of bein’ with me, forget them.”
“I assure you I don’t have. I was trying to be a big brother, Raph. That’s all.
I’m sorry.”
“This touchy feely thing ain’t me either. Ya can say things without touchin’.
Keep yer paws and lips ta yerself, okay?”
“I bet you wouldn’t have a problem if Donnie did that,” Leo said jealously.
“Course not, because I love him.”
“He’ll never love you. He’s straight.”
“Bah. I can turn him. One night with me and he’ll forget all ‘bout women. Yer
soundin’ bitter and jealous, Fearless.”
“I’m not. I was just…” Leo said, lying down.
“Anyway, pointless if ya are. I love Donnie and I’m still gonna woo him. He’ll
come ‘round and we’re gonna have the best life together. Ya will see. I’m gonna
tell him my feelings at breakfast. I'll ask him out and tell him this was all
just a game and I gotta do it as punishment for a while longer. Then we can be
proper mates and become bonded.”
Leo lay down, turned his shell to his brother and thought gloomily, as tears
streamed down his cheeks, I can’t do this. I can’t do this charade any longer.
It’s killing me. I have to leave. I love Raph so much, but all he has is utter
contempt for me. I can’t stand listening to how wonderful Donnie is and that
they’re going to have an awesome future together. I can’t stand being in the
same room as Raph and not being able to hold him and kiss him. I wish he’d tell
me he loved me, but I know that won’t ever happen. As soon as Mikey’s better,
I’ll leave and will forge my own path.
Chapter End Notes
     A/N Will Splinter's plan work?
***** Resolved *****
Chapter Summary
     Mikey and Casey discuss the loss of their baby and Mikey's determined
     to make Raphael pay for it.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
Casey arrived at the lair and made a beeline for the infirmary, fighting back
tears, as he thought about his cherished mate and the anguish he must be
feeling. He entered the infirmary and saw Mikey sitting upright on the
stretcher and staring at a white mass in front of him. The eggs, Casey thought
despondently. Our eggs. Oh, Mikey. My beloved Mikey.
Donnie stood nearby, sadness and helplessness etched on his face. He glanced up
and seeing Casey said. “Mikey, Casey’s here.”
Mikey said nothing, his gaze still transfixed on the mass.
“I’ll let you talk,” Donnie said. “I’m outside if you need me.” He patted
Casey’s shoulder and left the room.
Casey stood, feeling awkward and at a loss for words. Something he’d never felt
around Mikey before. They’d always felt relaxed around each other and able to
talk about anything. But this was a different ball game. Grief did that. Made
things hard and tragic and so unbearably awkward. Casey remembered the root
canal he’d had the previous year. That had been awful, but this…This was
significantly worse. A tooth was easy to deal with, but a miscarriage? Some
people never dealt with it and it sometimes lead to the dissolution of
marriages. The couples unable to cope with their grief and it tearing them
apart. His own grief was raw, but it must be tenfold worse for Mikey, who’d
been carrying their baby and only mere hours before had lovingly stroked his
belly and declared how thrilled he was to soon become a daddy.
Casey felt like there was a great void between him and Mikey and that nothing
he could do or say would bridge the gap, but he’d fucking try. He’d do anything
to get Mikey to talk and to smile. They had to communicate and be there for one
another. They needed one another more than anything now and needed to deal with
it together. Not separately.
He cleared his throat, sat down on the edge of the stretcher and tried to hug
Mikey, but he pulled away, still focussed on the white mass.
“Mikey, we need to talk,” Casey said despondently. “Baby, please.”
“There’s nothing to discuss. I want to be alone with our baby, who Raphael
murdered.”
“Raph what?” Casey said and blinked in confusion.
“He caused my miscarriage by kicking me when he assumed I cheated on Leo.
Raphael must die for his sins. The baby deserves justice.”
“Whoa. What?”
“I want you to kill Raphael! I don’t care if he’s your pal. He must die!” Mikey
said coldly, his gaze shifting to meet Casey’s. “You’ll kill him if you love
me. An eye for an eye. It’s the only way Raphael can atone. His life for my
baby’s.”
“Mikey, I understand you’re traumatized, but Raph’s your brother! I can’t do
that. Revenge isn’t the answer, my love, and this isn’t you. You aren’t a
vengeful person. Come now. We’ll get through this together. We’ll fix….”
“Fix?” Mikey shouted, his blue eyes blazing and clenching his fists, his
shoulders shaking in rage. “Nothing can fix this, Casey! Nothing can bring our
baby back and while revenge may not be the answer, it’ll fucking make me feel
better! He killed our baby. Our sweet baby. Don’t you fucking care? Why aren’t
you pissed, like me? Or maybe you didn’t really want the baby and are happy
he’s gone!”
Casey’s blood boiled at the insult and he took a deep breath to calm himself
down. Mikey had been through hell and snapping at him would only worsen things.
That’s the last thing Mikey needed. He needed love and comfort and tenderness.
Casey held up his hands in a soothing gesture and said, “Mikey, I wanted the
baby and I’m also devastated, but murdering Raphael’s not the solution. You
know that deep down. I know you want to lash out at someone, so lash out at me.
I can take it. Punch me and yell at me if you need to.”
“Why are you so fucking protective of Raphael? Do you love him?” Mikey said
jealously.
“I’ve never liked Raph that way, baby. It’s only ever been you!” Casey said and
grabbed Mikey’s wrists. He kissed them and said, “Only you. I swear on my life.
Yes. I’m mad and I’m heartbroken, but I know revenge isn’t the solution. It was
a tragic accident and due to miscommunication. Communication and love will help
us through this and we’ll have more babies when you’re ready. Tons of them.
Baby, I love you so much and it pains me seeing you this way. My sweet,
loveable Mikey. You mean the world to me. Let me in and let us deal with it
together. So many couples break up when this happens and I don’t want that to
happen to us. I don’t want to lose you.”
“I love you too. I was so excited,” Mikey said, tears filling his blue eyes.
“And now there’s nothing. What if we never have more babies?”
“We will my life. I promise, even if we adopt. Dry your tears. Things are going
to be all right,” Casey said and pulled Mikey into a hug.
Mikey allowed himself to be hugged and sobbed, tears streaming down his cheeks,
and thought, Casey and I’ll get through this, but I won’t allow Raphael to get
away with this. I will avenge my baby’s death somehow.
Casey cried too and his tears intermingled with Mikey’s and they held on to
each other tightly, cocooning themselves in their love, trying to comfort one
another.
Mikey raised his head and whispered, “I won’t kill him then, but I doubt I’ll
ever forgive him. How could I? I know they say hatred gnaws at you like cancer
and forgiveness is good for the soul, but I can’t forgive him. I doubt I ever
will. I loathe Raphael. I fucking despise him. I’ve always been the gentlest
brother, but this experience makes me want to rip Raphael’s head off! I want to
inflict pain on him and see him suffer, like I’m suffering. Do you understand?”
“I do. It’s understandable you feel that way. I’m distraught too, but violence
isn’t…”
“I know. But what if there was a way of making Raphael pay without resorting to
violence. Would you do it, knowing it would make me happy?”
“No. Mikey, I love you, but I don’t believe that’s the right path to follow.
It’s natural you can’t forgive Raphael now. The pain’s too fresh, but it’s
possible that you could someday. You’re brothers after all and he loves you and
you love him. No matter what, he’s still family and still my friend. I’m
furious, but I’m praying that I can find it in my heart to forgive him, because
I know that I need to. Hatred is a horrible thing to carry around and is like a
millstone weighing you down. I don’t want or need that and you neither. Pray
with me. I find that helps when dealing with difficult situations. Come with me
to Church, okay? We’ll go now. Get your disguise.”
“I’d rather just be here with you and maybe you have a point. I’ll try to
forgive Raphael,” Mikey lied, still determined to make his brother’s life hell.
“But right now all I want is you. I love you so much. We need to bury the
baby.”
Casey lifted his head, kissed Mikey on the lips and said, “We will. We’ll have
a special ceremony and bury him in my garden outside my bedroom window. I’ll
erect a small headstone with their name and say it was a cat or dog, who’d
died, so I won’t arouse suspicion in my dad.”
“I’d like that,” Mikey murmured, his eyes brimming with fresh tears. “What
would you have named our baby?”
“Jacinda for a girl and Nathan for a boy.”
“I love those,” Mikey sniffed. “I like Esmeralda and Luke.”
“Terrific. We’ll name them Jacinda and Luke then. How’s that?”
“Perfect,” Mikey choked out.
Casey kissed him again and Mikey heatedly thought, yes. Raphael will pay. It’ll
be a pleasure making him suffer.
Chapter End Notes
     A/N What has Mikey in mind for Raph? Will he actually do it or will
     he forgive his brother?
***** Heat *****
Chapter Summary
     Raphael tries to manipulate Leo and has the table turned on him. Smut
     and fluff.
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
A woman’s voice called from the entrance of the lair, “Hello?”
Recognizing April’s voice, Don went to her and said, “What do you want?”
“To apologize. I love you, Donnie, and I was out of line,” April choked out.
“Yeah. You were and it’s not the first time. You have to understand… I can’t do
this anymore. I’m fed up of fighting about my family. It’s clear you despise
them and I can’t be with someone, who does…”
“I’m pregnant!” April lied, fearing she was going to lose him.
The color drained from Don’s face and he stammered, “What? How?”
“You know how, silly boy. It’s yours and I’m five weeks pregnant. I hadn’t been
feeling well. I did a pregnancy test and it was blue. I’m stoked, aren’t you?
You said you wanted kids.”
“Uh, yes. Give me a moment to digest this,” Don said and sat down on a sofa.
She’s pregnant, Don thought. Shit. I can’t dump her now. I’ll look like an
asshole. I have to stay with her. Maybe things will change. She said she’s
sorry, right? I’ll try again with her for the baby’s sake.
“You’re not happy, Donnie?” April asked, her eyes filling with tears. “I hoped
you’d be. That’s okay. I can raise the baby on my own. We’ll be fine. I’m sorry
for bothering you.”
Donnie immediately stood, cupped her face in his hands, kissed her tears away
and said, “No, baby. We’ll raise the baby together. I love you and I couldn’t
be happier.”
The genius bent down, wrapped his arms around her and passionately kissed her.
Now I really have to get pregnant, April thought, as she eagerly returned the
kiss.
XXXXXX
Raphael went into the kitchen a couple of hours later to grab something to eat.
Leo was meditating in the dojo. The emerald skinned turtle was astounded to see
April sitting at the kitchen table with Donnie.
“She’s back, egghead?” Raphael said, failing to hide his dismay. “Thought the
bitch was gone for good!”
Donnie’s face darkened and he growled, “Don’t talk about my baby’s mom and my
bride-to-be like that, Raphael!
“Huh?” Raphael said and blinked in confusion. “Baby? I don’t understand.”
“Let me explain,” April said snidely. “Couples fuck and the woman becomes
pregnant when the male fertilizes her egg. I’m a few weeks along and we’re so
happy. You’re going to be an uncle, Raphael.”
Hurt, disbelief and rage flashed on the volatile turtle’s face. Unable to
contain his escalating temper, Raphael yelled, “Have ya fuckin’ lost yer mind,
Donnie? I thought ya liked me. Ya said...”
“Come again?” Don said in amazement. “Us? Are you smoking something, Raph?”
“Must be,” April said. “Because Donnie’s never had the hots for you, Raphael.
He’s straight and loves me.”
“But ya said ya were gonna build somethin’ for the person ya love, Donnie,”
Raphael said, blinking back tears. “And give it ta them at Christmas.”
“Yes, but it wasn’t for you, Raph. I’ve never felt more than brotherly love for
you and I never will. I’m sorry. Aren’t you with Leo anyway? I’m confused.”
“Yeah. I am. I just thought ya liked me.”
“No. I wish you and Leo well, though. No hard feelings?”
Sure,” Raphael forced himself to say, as his world crumbled. He feigned
nonchalance and said, “I gotta do somethin’. Bye.”
Raphael left the kitchen, forcing himself not to break down. Then his shoulders
slumped and his heart shattered, he rushed to his bedroom, as tears streamed
down his face.
XXXXXX
Leo had left the dojo and was sitting on his bed reading a book, when the door
opened and Raphael barged in, his face streaked with tears.
Leo glanced up and taking in his miserable brother said, “What happened, Raph?”
“Fuck off,” Raphael snarled. “Don’t wanna talk ‘bout it.”
Leo stood up, went over to him and said, “You told Donnie, didn’t you and it
went badly?”
“I fuckin’ said I don’t wanna talk ‘bout it,” Raphael growled. “Leave me the
fuck alone. Don’t wanna hear ya gloat.”
“Why would I gloat, least of all when you’re hurting? You’re my baby brother,”
Leo said and wrapped his arms around him.
Raphael’s natural instinct was to pull away. He detested close intimacy, but he
didn’t pull away. Instead, he allowed his brother, who’d always been able to
soothe him, comfort him, and he openly cried on his shoulder. Heart breaking
sobs that wracked his body and pierced Leo’s heart. Leo hated seeing his
brothers, especially Raphael in distress.
Why don’t I wanna pull away, Raphael thought? I usually do. Leo’s strong musk
suddenly assaulted his nostrils and he thought in disgust, that’s why. Leo’s
scent and his presence. They always calmed me when I was a kid and they’re
doin’ that now and I feel safe and warmed and loved and a yearnin' in my groin.
Fuck. Why? Does it mean I’m attracted ta Leo? I ain’t, am, I? I love Donnie. I
fuckin’ love Donnie and I will win him! He don’t want April and is just with
her ‘causea the baby. He wants me and I’ll make him so insane with jealousy,
he’ll realize that and will want me. Yeah. I could never love Fearless. He’s so
borin’! But maybe I can use Fearless ta win the genius.
Raphael raised his head and kissed his brother on his lips. Leo’s eyes flew
wide and he said, “Ra….”
“Hush, Fearless,” Raphael said, trailing a hand down Leo’s plastron and making
him shiver.
Raphael nibbled Leo’s lower lip and thrust his tongue inside of him, tasting
him and thinking he tasted of mint. Must be all the mint tea he drinks, Raphael
thought. Exotic and surprisingly delicious. I like it, but that ain’t why I’m
doin’ this. I wanna make Donnie riled. That’s all! Fearless also smells
enticin’ and I can smell his arousal. Fuck. Raph, focus. This is ‘bout gettin’
Donnie ta love ya, okay? Not pleasin’ Leo.
Stunned by the kiss, Leo tried to pull away, but Raphael yanked his mask tails
and pulled him closer. Then gazing into Leo’s mesmerizing blue eyes, Raphael
thrust his tongue instead of Leo’s mouth, while running a hand down his body.
He settled it on Leo’s tail, gave it a playful tug and Leo emitted an
undignified squawk.
Raphael wanted to guffaw at it, but he knew that’d kill the mood, so he pressed
his plastron against Leo’s, which created a wonderful, sensual friction and
caused deep rumbles to roll up their throats. Raphael was embarrassed and
flushed. He’d never thought he could make those noises, but now wasn’t the time
to dwell on that. He had to conquer Leo.
Look on the bright side, Raphael thought. It may be with Leo, but least I won’t
be no virgin no more.
A flustered and equally mortified Leo tried to pull away, but Raphael quickly
captured his lips in a sweet and tender kiss. Then he thrust his tongue inside
of him and nibbled on Leo’s tongue Turned on and with heat pooling in his
groin, Leo returned the kiss. Their tongues danced together, as Leo’s hands
roamed over Raphael’s body. He finally settled it on Raphael’s rump and gave it
a loving squeeze.
Raph’s a good kisser, Leo thought. And tender. I thought he’d be fiercer. This
is good, but we should stop. We should. He’s probably only doing this to spite
Don. I wish he wanted to for real. I should, but I can’t tear myself away. So
much for being Mr. In Control, but then I was never able to refuse him
anything.
Leo’s a great kisser, Raphael thought, as he put in all his passion and soul
into the kiss. I never thought he would be. If things were different, maybe
we’d… No. This is ‘bout winnin’ Donnie. Seduce Fearless, fuck and let Donnie
see the love bites and smell our lovemakin’. Leo better not think he’s gonna
top, because I sure as hell ain’t bottomin’!
Raphael suddenly pounced on his brother and pushed him back onto the bed. He
planted little kisses down Leo’s plastron and kneed his legs apart, but Leo was
having none of that.
I’m not bottoming, Leo thought irately. Raph started this game. He can!
Leo flipped them, so he was astride his brother, who struggled futilely, as Leo
pinned him down. Raphael's green eyes glowered at his big brother, rage written
all over his face.
“Let me fuckin’ go!” Raphael snapped. “This ain’t funny, Leo.”
“But you were fine about screwing me, right? Settle down, Raph. This’ll be fun.
You want this, right? To pay Donnie back? That’s what this is about, right? You
don’t love me.”
Raphael’s cheeks flamed in shame and he said, “Yeah. I admit it. Let me go and
we’ll never talk ‘bout it again!”
Leo lowered his head and nipped at Raphael’s collarbone. The emerald skinned
turtle shrieked in astonishment, but Leo ignored him and started stroking his
slit.
“I don’t wanna,” Raphael said in dismay, trying to wriggle away, but Leo’s hold
was firm. “Stop that. I don’t want this.”
Leo swiped a long lick across Raphael’s neck, which made the hothead tremble,
and said, “I know you do, Raphie. You want this so badly. Come out and play.”
Raphael pressed his tail as closely as he could to his body and said, “Let me
fuckin’ go now, Leo, and I won’t tell Dad ya tried ta rape yer little bro.”
“Rape?” Leo said in disbelief. “This isn’t rape. You wanted sex. You’re just
sore it’s me topping and you’re the damn uke! You’ll get what you want. We’ll
screw. You can try and make Donnie jealous, but it’ll only happen if I top. Do
you understand?”
“Fuck ya,” Raphael hissed.
“Tick-tock.”
I don’t got mucha choice, Raphael thought despondently. Ignore yer pride, Raph,
and let Leo have his way. Ya’ll still get Donnie.
“Fine,” Raphael said through clenched teeth. “Ya win, Fearless.” He dropped his
tail, parted his legs and said, “Go easy. This is my first time.”
“Mine too,” Leo said. He nipped all over Raphael’s body, leaving multiple red
marks he knew would be visible.
Love bites that mean he’s mine and I claimed him, Leo thought.
Raphael groaned and warmth pooled in his groin again, as Leo’s leathery tongue
licked its way down his plastron .
That feels kinda nice, Raphael thought. But I’m gonna pretend it’s with Donnie.
Fuck Fearless and fuck him for manipulatin’ me. Ain’t gonna let him think I
like this!
Leo reached into a dresser, withdrew a bottle of lube and Raphael’s eyes
widened in amazement. He hadn’t expected Leo to have that.
“How come ya got that, Leo?” Raphael asked.
Leo shrugged and said, “I thought I might have a shot with Karai. She seemed to
like me.”
“Haha. That psycho prefers yers truly, but ya can…”
Raphael’s words trailed off, as Leo stroked his slit. Raphael hummed in
appreciation, the soft cartilage in his slit parted and his semi erect cock,
which leaked precum, dropped into Leo’s waiting hands.
“You’re huge,” Leo purred. “Guessing seven inches?”
“Ten at full mast and get this over with!”
“So impatient and needy. You sure you’re not a girl?”
“Leo, stop bein’ a fuckin’ prick and get on with it!”
“Keep your shell on,” Leo said and squeezed some lube onto a finger. Then he
inserted it into Raphael’s hole.
Stunned by the sudden penetration in his rear and by the strange feeling,
Raphael hissed and glared at his brother.
Bastard, Raphael thought. Don’t like that!
Leo gently moved his finger in and out of Raphael and his finger soon hit
Raphael’s prostate, causing the temperamental turtle to churr at the
pleasurable sensation. He rocked back and forth on Leo’s finger, closed his
eyes and thought, I like this. Feels incredible.
Leo removed his finger and Raphael was disgusted at himself when he whined at
the sudden loss of warmth.
Leo pressed his face against Raphael’s, beamed and said, “Miss me, huh? Going
to fill you up with my seed. You smell terrific, Raphie. I love your scent and
you’re gorgeous beneath me. Right where you belong, ninja wanna be!”
“Fuck ya, Splinter junior,” Raphael yelled, his green eyes flashing. “Just wait
until….”
Raphael’s words trailed off, as Leo thrust his eight inch cock inside of him.
The hothead stifled a scream at the burning sensation. Not wanting to give his
brother the satisfaction of knowing he was in agony.
“You’re so tight. Am I hurting you?” Leo asked, his voice laced with concern.
“What? Tough me hurt by yer small dick? Hardly,” Raphael scoffed. “Come on,
Fearless. I’m ready if ya think ya can plow me, assumin’ yer not afraid. Maybe
ya got doubts ‘bout how good ya’ll be. I can take whatever ya can dish out.”
Leo smiled and said, “If you say so.” He sped up the pace and thrust in and
out, soon forming a steady rhythm.
Pain soon turned to pleasure for Raphael, as Leo repeatedly hit his prostate.
He fisted the bedsheets, threw back his head in ecstasy and churred in
appreciation, his cheeks flushed and his hole widening to accommodate Leo’s
girth.
Leo looked at his flushed brother and thought, he’s so beautiful. If only he
really loved me. I’d give anything for that, but it won’t happen. I’ll soon be
elsewhere and Donnie will maybe accept Raph. Mustn’t forget that.
Leo kissed his brother and said, “You’re so amazing, Raph. So perfect.
You’re….”
“Yer makin’ my shell itch with the sappiness. Just fuck me.”
“As you wish.”
Leo thrust in even harder and deeper and churred, feeling like he was on cloud
nine.
I love this, Leo thought. Being with him. Feels so right and like we were made
for one another. I love his sexy noises, his cute little tail, his butt, his
stunning green eyes. I love everything about him, even his cockiness. He’s
sheer perfection.
Raphael growled lowly, reached up and dug his blunt nails into Leo’s arms, as
they continued their love making and rocked as one. United and pleasure and
warmth coursing through theor bodies.
Leo’s tender, Raphael thought and such a givin’ lover. Fuck. This is heavenly.
I wanna cum so bad. Feel so fuckin’ fantastic. Who’d have thought my first time
would be with Leo? Ain’t life unpredictable?
Leo pumped Raphael’s cock and it wasn’t long with the double stimulation before
Raphael climaxed with a loud growl, his sticky seed splattering his plastron.
Leo came soon after with a loud churr and filled his brother with his essence,
some of it leaking out of Raphael’s hole. Then panting, he pulled out and
flopped down beside his brother.
“Donnie’s gonna be jealous now,” Raphael said smugly, trying to ignore his
throbbing ass and tail. “Ya’ll see.”
“I hope you’re right.”
“I’m always right. Hey, Fearless? Ya nailed me good.”
“I hope I didn’t hurt you.”
“Turn ‘round. Wanna talk.”
The last thing Leo wanted to do was talk. He wanted to sleep and to forget he’d
allowed himself to fuck his brother when he knew it wouldn’t go anywhere. He’d
lost control and he was revolted with himself. Leo turned around and was amazed
to see Raphael reaching out for him.
“Couples snuggle in the afterglow of sex,” Raphael explained, seeing Leo’s
astonished gaze.
“We aren’t a couple and you don’t snuggle.”
“I know, right? But I wanna,” Raphael said almost shyly. “Please.”
Leo sighed and cuddled with Raphael, wishing a hole would swallow him up. It
was incredible being so close with him, but at the same time he wished he was
somewhere else, because it wasn’t love. It’d been just sex and a ploy of
Raphael’s to get who he wanted. Donnie. Leo felt cheapened, but wasn’t it his
fault? He could have stopped it, but he’d willingly bedded him and had in fact
taken the lead. He sucked as both a brother and a leader. He’d been mad at his
brother for being manipulative, but he was worse, wasn’t he? He should have….
Raphael’s beak affectionately nuzzled Leo’s cheek and the leader stared, open
mouthed in shock. Raphael hadn’t been so loving since he was a kid and only
reluctantly accepted hugs once in a blue moon. Is he sick, Leo thought?
“I just wanna say. Thank ya, Fearless,” Raphael said and smiled. Not a smirk,
but a genuine smile that caused butterflies in Leo’s chest. “I liked it and I
know it’s gonna make Donnie crazy ‘bout me. He’s gonna flip when he sees my
bites.”
“Sure.”
“Ya know, ya were kinda good. I’m sorry I insulted yer virility and stamina.
Hey. Wanna go another round? I’ve recovered.”
“I’m tired, Raph.”
“Maybe later?”
“Like me, huh? You like your big brother stuffing you good?” Leo teased.
“Later ain’t good enough,” Raphael said with a smirk.
Raphael rolled onto his brother and pinned him down.
Leo tried to break free, but Raphael nipped at his collarbone, asserting
dominance, and said, “No. It’s my turn ta top! Don’t fret, Leo. It’ll only
sting for a minute and then ya’ll be in heaven.”
“Raph!” Leo said fearfully. “I don’t want…”
“Ya scared? I took it and didn’t whinge. Surely a noble and fearless warrior
like ya can?”
“I’m not scared. It’s just….”
“Ya got a virgin hole, huh? I also did. Don’t worry. I can be tender and
gentle, okay? I’m gonna make ya see stars.”
Raphael licked his plastron, causing Leo to groan. Then he turned his attention
to Leo’s slit and rubbed it. He grinned when the leader soon dropped down, his
forest green cock oozing precum.
Raphael licked the shaft, making Leo shiver. Then he lined his cock up at Leo’s
entrance and said, “I’m goin’ in. Brace yerself.”
Unable to stop himself, Leo whined, as Raphael thrust his cock inside of him.
It burned like hell and he hated it.
“Ya sore, Fearless?” Raphael asked anxiously.
Leo gritted his teeth and muttered, “Fine. Just stings.”
“It’ll stop soon. Relax and let yerself go. I promise I’ll be gentle. I ain’t
no savage. Well, not always.”
Raphael picked up the pace and gently thrust in and out, soon building a steady
rhythm and repeatedly hitting Leo’s prostate.
The forest green turtle churred, his lips parted, his cheeks flushed, as
pleasure coursed through him.
Raph’s cock hurt at first, Leo thought, but now it feels wonderful inside of
me. I like it.
Leo looks so cute, Raphael thought. Fuck. Did I say cute? This is just sex and
meant ta get Donnie, Raph. Don’t fall for Leo. Don’t. He don’t like ya.
Remember that.
Raphael pumped Leo’s cock and gave a final thrust into him.
Leo climaxed first with a loud churr, his essence painting his plastron white.
Raphael came with a loud growl a minute later and shot his essence deep inside
of his brother. Then he pulled out, rolled off of his brother and lay down,
feeling spent and satiated.
“Ya okay, Fearless?” Raphael said breathlessly.
“Fine.”
I’m not fine, Leo, thought. I fucked my brother. Not once, but twice. We can’t
do it again. Maybe I can ask Dad to let me leave sooner. How am I supposed to
hide my feelings after this? I have to try. I can’t leave now. Mikey needs me.
I’m so…
“So,” Raphael said, turning around. “Look at me.”
“Why?”
“Just do it.”
Leo sighed and turned around. “Happy now?”
“Yeah. Sex makes ya glow, Leo. Ya look soft and beautiful. I like it.”
“Are you sick, Raph? You said something sweet.”
“Maybe yer rubbin’ offa me,” Raphael said and chuckled. “I’m serious. Anyway, I
liked the sex and I hope I didn’t hurt ya too much.”
“I’m fine. Just want….”
“We gotta keep fuckin’. This can’t be a one-time thing, else Donnie won’t
believe us. We got a date tonight and then fuckin’, okay?”
“Ever to the point.”
“I did say date. I didn't just say fuckin'. I can be romantic, because we gotta
have romance and not just fuckin’ ta make it believable.”
“You’re right,” Leo said and yawned. His butt and tail hurt, but he forced
himself to ignore it.
“Now cuddle me. Need ya scent all over me, so Donnie can smell ya.”
I hate this, Leo thought, but I also love being with him. Fuck. I should never
have agreed to the stupid charade. Way to go, Leo! You always get yourself in
trouble. I’m going to talk to Dad and ask his advice about this.
Raphael wrapped his arms around his brother and thought, Donnie’s gonna be all
over me when he finds out we banged. Then we’re gonna have a bondin’ ceremony
and we’ll be happy forever. Fuck April. I bet that bitch ain’t even pregnant
and is tryin’ ta trap him. Gonna look into that and try ta get a sample of her
DNA ta check.
Raphael soon fell into a deep slumber, unaware of his big brother's inner
struggle.
 
 
 
 
Chapter End Notes
     A/N Will Leo leave earlier? Will Raph love him for real?
     Thanks for the kudos. :)
End Notes
     A/N Will Leo leave? Will Donnie return Raphael's love?
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